i cant take it anymore
the cruelty of civilization
the emptiness
full of emptiness
pointlessness
and i can only watch
as it seeps into my story
and poisons the princess
and surrounds the prince
so their hearts are wrapped in barbed wire.
and i hate how they want to tame me
to mold me
to their molds.
where are the wide open spaces?
where is the fullness
of freedom?
the completeness
of being forever uncompleted
and free to develop?
where have i taken myself
to fall into this
dark and sharp and ugly?
why am i sitting here
beside the hunter
who has yet to clean his knife
from the blood of the wolf.
why did i leave the wolf
as he struggled to tell me
with his last breath
what i have yet to hear?
why did i follow the blonde haired babe
with her cloak of blood red,
red like the bleeding wolf
with his wide frightened eyes?
why did i listen
to her promises
that were as empty as this noise,
this crazy barbaric killer
we call civilization?
how can i get away,
get back to peace
to the wolves in their hushed, warm den?
how can i rid myself of this bile
this clawing in my throat
that holds me hostage
and makes me retch?
i know only
that it is killing me
slowly
from the inside out.
and its poisoning my ability to love
to live
and i need to feel the air again
and i need to love you
and i need to be able to live again,
i just want to live again.
i want to run away
and raise our baby in the mountains
where the stones will teach him what he has always known
and what they will try to hide from him
and what they are taking from me
and what they can never have.
we can never let them have it.
never let the wolves die
never let ourselves
be kept from living
the way we can live when we are alive
free from the poisons
and pains
and pressures
that kill us
every day
in this god forsaken
"civilization."
